One year ago, on April 8th, Easter Sunday, Isaiah hunted for Easter eggs with cousin Aaliyah at Grandma's house. I felt frustrated for Isaiah as he worked so hard to retrieve the chocolate eggs. He appeared exhausted and could not lift himself up one stair without asking to be carried. After a short hunt and few eggs in his basket, he was content with what he had collected despite my urging to look in the places where there were still eggs. He was tired and uninterested. What I wouldn't find out until the next day was that his heart was enlarged, compensating for the lack of blood he had, in order to pump enough oxygen through his body.
This past year has been the most difficult year of my life. Anyone who has a child of their own can understand how hard it is to see their own child hurting. I remember some nights after Isaiah had received chemotherapy treatments, he'd moan in pain throughout the night. There was nothing in my power to make him feel better. All that I could do was hold his hand and be with him until the hurting subsided.
That said, it has also been a year of rich blessing. We grow during times of suffering as we learn to fully rely on God, knowing that His plans are ALWAYS greater than our own. After going through this experience, I have discovered that Christ is sufficient. The way I would like my life to play out has no significance. God is the author of my destiny and it is so freeing to know that He has a plan for me and my family. The things of this world are all too temporary. Even life itself is frail and there are never any guarantees. It is very easy to be engrossed in the present life. When God allows these trials, I am reminded that my life is not in my own control. In order to live an abundant life, I need to keep my focus on Christ.
I am so thankful for all that I have and am feeling so richly blessed this Easter. God is healing Isaiah and has a special plan for his life. I am looking forward to this year - to see God working in our lives. Thank you Lord for all that You Are!
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Easter Sunday 2012 |
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Easter Sunday 2013 |
And of course, we cannot leave out a picture of Oats